Damn love is a bitch...

Life is too!!! ARG!!

"Dreaming of you is like Dreaming of Suicide..Useless" - quote by me

Why does it have to be so hard? Why can't I let you go, Why can't I get you out of my head, Why won't my heart let you go?

I will always love that one person forever even if im not with him<3333

---Sick sucks majorly! specially on christmas!!! >.<

wowie writing something in here...ummmm..like not last weekend but the weekend for that..lol...it was really dumb...was over a friends..and this little kid..got into an arguement with a little girl..and they got into a fight kinda...well my friend like got the little girl away from the kid so that he wouldnt hurt her and her little brother got him away from her holding him bk...well suddenly sum lady and her daughter were walking there dog and well...seen sum of it...she came over...got a cop involved..and he called another since he wasnt working at the moment...well the cop that came took all our names down...and the kid was like telling the lady that I was choking him and that my friend was kicking him..wasnt true at all..it was crazy...I wasnt even near the damn kid...but anyways after the cop took our names he was like..u all might get a letter in the mail for court if the mother ends up pressing charges...which The mother was going to...but my friends mom talked to her and worked things out...but we were still pretty worried cuz u no how ppl can change there mind on stuff like this situation...ugh I just cant believe that little kid actually brought me into the situation...so I was pretty pissed when it happened..

well thats pretty much all that was crazy and happened!..well im off...it was stupid

-Nella-

Okay, so I had to make a poem in English class the other day, so here is the poem I ended up writing, hope everyone likes, well the ones that actually reads my xanga.

"Looking into the mirror that’s been broken"

Looking into the mirror that’s been broken

Look at the bright red blood stain on her hands

Tears falling from her eyes

Like rain dripping from window seals

Looking down in shame

She’s wondering why her heart

Shatters like glass

Not like she’s heart broken

She’s just all shattered inside

She lost her faith in the world

Fallen’ from grace

Her heart bleeds inside

Like her hands on the outside

All bloody up from the broken mirror

Feeling so cold like death in the air

Shaking in fright as she wipes the blood

From her hands

What is she to do

If no one cares

How she feels

By Nella©

"I'll Be Ok"
Here I am
no where to hide
I want to cry my eyes out
but all I do is hide my tears
so don't look at me
I'll be ok
these tears won't fall
not infront of you or anyone
I'll be strong no matter what
Im happy I swear
So don't worry about me
Don't even look at me
I'll be ok
I'll smile
I'll laugh
No matter how much I hurt inside
I'll hide my sadness from the world
But don't look at me
If you do you'll see it in my eyes
the hurt
the sadness
so don't look at me
so you'll believe im happy as can be.
-Made By Nella(Me)(9/21/05)©

"Pain"
All I want to do is curl up in the corner and burst into tears
so hopeless and hurting inside
I can't help my feelings
but now all I do is hide it from others
no one knows im still in so much pain
so much hurt
but I hide it anyways
so that no one thinks im complaining
so that no one hears me talk about "him" so much.
so now all I do is hide my feelings.
-Made By Nella(Me) (9/21/05)©